help to keep it posi

There have been a lot of times that I open this window and then close it because I think that no one is going to care what I have to say anyway... but it doesn't matter if anyone reads this or not, I should use it for my own benefit to outwardly gather my thoughts because that always seems to help. I have been having fun, but I have been feeling kind of sad. At night I come home and there's no one here, no one awake and I just sit here by myself. I don't like being by myself because then I start to think about stuff that I don't want to think about.

I have thought recently that I have gotten over a lot of stuff that used to really bother me, but its creeping back. Maybe its the season, it brings back memories. Maybe its recently seeing some old friends... whatever the cause, I don't like it. I never liked the me that sat and worried and over thought things to the point where it would make me an emotional time-bomb waiting to explode (always on the wrong person). "Then just don't be like that." Right? I would be more than happy.

Keep it posi. I need to get in the positive, happy rut that I had been in. Maybe I just need some time...